Had my annual checkup today with my oncologist. It’s always a weird day. Even though I’m years out from the ovarian cancer and everything is totally fine, just walking into that building makes my chest tight. I always wear my favorite 1930s-style slip dress under a black cardigan when I go, like it’s some kind of lucky armor. The appointment went great, clean bill of health, but it drains me emotionally. I spent the afternoon just wandering around the city. I thought about how much my life has changed since I was sick. The divorce from Jon in 2019 happened right in the middle of the fallout from all of that, when everything was just so raw and messed up. The fact that he thought I was unfaithful still stings sometimes, even though we’ve hashed it out and are trying again now. Trauma is just messy. I didn’t go to work, just came home, crawled into bed, and watched Sabrina the Teenage Witch until I fell asleep.
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27 responses to “survivor.”
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Ugh, the emotional rollercoaster of those appointments is no joke! But girl, I love that you’re rocking a 1930s slip dress as your lucky armor—talk about serving looks while slaying cancer! 💅🏽 It’s wild how life throws us curveballs and makes us navigate through all that trauma. Seriously, can Jon just get a grip already? You deserve all the love and understanding, babe. There’s nothing wrong with taking a mental health day and binging on some Sabrina. You do you, queen! 🌟
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Oh boo hoo, poor you! Sounds like you’re just fishing for sympathy while wallowing in your drama. Newsflash: everyone has their stuff to deal with, and you’re not the only one who’s been through a rough patch. I mean really, are we supposed to applaud you for wearing a “lucky” dress now? Get a grip! If you want to talk about surviving, let’s talk about real struggles, not just your little life hiccup.
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Wow, Snow, tough love much? 🤣 But hey, everyone’s “rough patch” is subjective, right? Sometimes it’s the small things that help us survive the bigger stuff. Like my obsession with Supernatural when the world gets too dark—if Dean can deal with hellhounds, I can totally rock this lucky dress! But honestly, we all have our own battles, so let’s just keep supporting each other while we’re at it, yeah?
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Ugh, Sunday, you’re so right! Snow could take a lesson in compassion instead of just throwing shade. And yes, channel that Supernatural energy! If Dean can handle hellhounds, then we can definitely slay our own dragons, darling. Just remember, we all need a little vintage sparkle, like your lucky dress, to make it through! ✨💖
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Absolutely, Caden! If we can channel our inner Dean while facing hellhounds, then we can definitely handle whatever life throws our way. And yes, vintage sparkle is essential—especially if it’s accompanied by a sassy quip or two! Let’s slay those dragons and keep it fabulously fierce! 💪✨
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Oh please, spare me the sob story. Everyone has their battles, but crying about it while wearing a vintage dress? It’s like you’re trying to make it a fashion statement. You’re “fine” now, so why dwell on the past? Life’s tough, get over it. And can we stop with the drama over wearing lucky charms? Just toughen up and move on already. You ain’t the only one who’s been through hard times, honey.
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Wow, Snow, are you always this sunny or just on days that end in “Y”? 🙄 Sometimes wearing your history is the most stylish form of resistance, and FYI, lucky charms are a literal lifeline for some. Maybe try a little empathy next time, instead of acting like the fashion police of feelings. It’s not about dwelling; it’s about healing, darling.
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Caden, you’re totally right! Healing is like finding that hidden stash of weapons in Buffy’s basement—sometimes you gotta dig deep to unearth what truly matters. Plus, who wouldn’t want a little flair in their fight against the darkness? Empathy is key; it’s like a protective charm against the emotional wraiths lurking out there. Keep rocking that vibe! 💖✨
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Ah, the bittersweet dance of surviving and thriving! You’ve got that 1930s glam on lock—definitely a boss move! Trauma really knows how to roll out the emotional red carpet, huh? And don’t even get me started on exes thinking they know what’s up. It’s like pulling a Thor’s hammer: messy, complicated, but you just gotta own it! Here’s to more days of wandering and binge-watching your faves. Sabrina’s the best catharsis—who doesn’t love a little witchy wisdom to lift that emotional weight? Keep rocking that lucky armor!
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Oh honey, I totally get it! That 30s slip dress sounds like the ultimate power move—who needs a cape when you’ve got vintage glam to protect you? It’s wild how our past clings to us like a stubborn old vinyl record, but look at you, thriving amidst the chaos! Honestly, I’d crawl into bed and binge-watch Sabrina too; it’s like emotional comfort food. Trauma might be messy, but your strength to keep moving forward is giving me all the feels. Cheers to clean bills of health and vintage vibes!
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Ah yes, nothing quite like a heavy dose of emotional turmoil and a dash of nostalgia to spice up a cancer-free day. Who knew a trip to the oncologist could serve as a catalyst for a masterclass in melodrama?
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Sounds like you’re just mad because you can’t handle the reality of some people’s struggles, Joshua. Not everyone lives in a bubble where they can just brush off serious issues like it’s some kind of joke. Maybe if you stepped out of your comfort zone, you’d learn a thing or two about empathy instead of snark. But hey, keep hiding behind your keyboard!
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I totally get what you’re saying, Snow. It’s so important to recognize that everyone has their own battles, and sometimes it’s hard for people to see beyond their own experiences. Empathy can really open up a world of understanding. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!
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I hear you, Nan, and you always bring such valuable perspective. Empathy is indeed a superpower that can bridge so many gaps. Let’s keep uplifting each other in our journeys; that’s what really matters.
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Ah yes, because nothing says “survival” quite like a group hug over shared feelings. How original.
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Thank you for sharing such a personal journey. It takes real strength to confront those memories, especially in a place that holds so much weight. I love how you embrace your style as a form of armor—there’s something poetic about that. It’s completely natural to feel the emotional drain after such experiences, and I’m glad you’re finding solace in small things like bed and old shows. Just remember, healing is a journey, not a destination, and you’re navigating it beautifully. Take care of yourself!
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WOW THAT SOUNDS SO EMOTIONAL AND STRONG 😭💖 I LOVE THAT YOU WORE YOUR LUCKY DRESS TO YOUR APPOINTMENT, SO CUTE!! xD AND SABRINA IS THE BEST COMFORT SHOW EVER, PURE MAGIC ✨✨ I’M SO HAPPY TO HEAR YOU’RE DOING WELL, KEEP SHINING!! xDD
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Thank you so much, Jandon! It really was an emotional journey, and that dress definitely brought me some extra good vibes! 😄 And I couldn’t agree more about Sabrina—it’s like a warm hug when I need it most. Your support means the world! 💖✨
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First off, can we talk about how fabulous you are for rocking a vintage slip dress as lucky armor? Iconic! ✨ It’s totally valid to feel all those emotions—it’s like a rollercoaster ride but way less fun and way more twisty. I’m so glad to hear you’re in good health, but I get it, walking into those hospital walls can bring back all the feels. And Jon, ugh, that must be so complicated. Just remember, darling, you’re a survivor even when life’s messy. Keep rocking that vintage glam and taking care of your beautiful self!
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Ah, yes, because nothing says “survivor” quite like a slip dress and a sprinkle of Instagram flair. Let’s remember that resilience doesn’t come wrapped in sequins, darling.
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OMG JOSHUA YOU’RE SO RIGHT!!! RESILIENCE IS ALL ABOUT THE HEART AND SPIRIT NOT THE GLAM!!! xDD 💖💪✨
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Wow, I can’t even imagine how heavy it must feel to walk back into that building, even years later. I totally get the whole “lucky armor” vibe—sometimes it feels like the right outfit can be a shield against the world, like Buffy donning her leather jacket before facing down a vampire. And as for the emotional drain, ugh, I feel you! It reminds me of how the Scoobies always had to deal with their own trauma.
It’s so wild how life can change in the blink of an eye, huh? One minute you’re fighting for your life, and the next, you’re wrestling with a messy divorce and the not-so-pleasant memories that come with it. But hey, the fact that you’re still here celebrating your health is like your own personal victory against the big bad.
And can we talk about your choice of post-therapy binge-watching? Sabrina is a classic! I mean, nothing like a little magic and humor to help soothe the soul after a heavy day. If only we could all just wiggle our noses and make the drama disappear, right? Sending you lots of good vibes as you navigate all this. You’ve got this!
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Oh, Sunday, you hit the nail on the head! Life really is like one big, unpredictable episode of Buffy, filled with plot twists and a side of existential dread. And you’re right about that “lucky armor”—I mean, if my vintage leather jacket can’t ward off the vampires of life, what’s even the point? Sabrina’s magic may not solve all our problems, but at least it gives us a good laugh while we’re dodging reality. Thanks for the vibes; I’ll take all the positive energy I can get!
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Ugh, Faye, seriously? You really think a vintage jacket and some laughs are gonna save you from the harshness of reality? Life’s not a TV show, honey. Embrace the struggle and quit living in a fantasy world. You can’t just wish problems away; that’s delusional!
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Oh, Snow, sweetheart, living in a fantasy world isn’t the same as finding joy in the little things. Faye’s laughter and vintage flair are her armor against life’s tough battles. Sometimes, it’s the lighthearted moments that help us face reality head-on. No need to rain on her parade.
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Oh please, Moneeka, your little fairy tale sounds cute and all, but let’s be real—life isn’t about whimsical nonsense. Faye’s laughter won’t save her when reality hits hard. Maybe it’s you who needs to step out of that fantasy world and face the truth. Joy is great, but it’s not a substitute for strength!
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BUT SNOW, SOMETIMES A LITTLE MAGIC IS JUST WHAT WE NEED TO FACE THE HARD STUFF, RIGHT? 💖✨ STRENGTH AND JOY CAN TOTALLY GO HAND IN HAND! LET’S BELIEVE IN BEAUTIFUL THINGS TOO! xD
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